First I was mad, basically, that it was no longer the early 2000's and I kind of realized again that tv is different now. I do this a lot. When it comes to tv I still expect to see the usual shows. In the evening I still expect to find Toonami going on for Cartoon Network. I still expect Nick at Night to start at 9. I miss this. I miss it so much. It was so perfect.
But it's different now. And it sucks.
For a new generation this will be the normal situation. It's a darn shame. Just because there's new kids doesn't mean the channels have to take off the cartoons. The characters don't age with us. They are timeless. Show the reruns. Why is that such a big deal? No matter. I emailed Nickelodeon and Cartoon Network complaining. I'll probably get an automated response back that doesn't answer any of my questions but it got me off my rant.
Now I'm just sort of thinking about everything. Mostly the future. There are a great many things I plan on doing. I want to see Europe. And the pyramids. I want to go to Disney World and the Wizarding World of Harry Potter. But most importantly and I think we are all keenly aware of this...I want Pixar.
It's really frustrating too. I know I want to work in this place. I have a vague idea of what I would like to do there. But here I am, in highschool, learning all sorts of things that are interesting to some people....but not to me. And I get 43 minutes of art class where we are restricted to boring project guidelines and given little creative room. I know there will be project guidelines at Pixar...but based on the extensive research I've done on that place....those guidelines will be so much more fun. It's very frustrating. Forced to wait for the time to come. I feel like I'm chained down.
And I don't like "going out" and "partying". I have no need or want to drink or do stupid things. I effing want Pixar. I don't know how else to put it. And I don't want to do anything like that to endanger the chances of working there. Is that paranoid? Probably. But I want this so very badly. Time will fly by, I'm sure. When the time comes I'll say that wasn't so bad. But right now it feels very...poop. Like I'm standing in the middle of desert and I know exactly where I want to go but every time I move the location moved backward as I move forward.
And I was also thinking about how mean people are to eachother. That is a very big topic. I won't really get into it. But I don't understand it. I find it amazing how easily we could all just be happy but there are still people who intentionally choose to be bitter and evil and put people down. Makes no sense. No sense at all.
Sigh.
